Emotionally drained

Well here it is the 16th if August and its 12:28 AM, the usual time for me to be blogging...
Why so late? - Well because this is the only time I have to myself. The animals are asleep, Zack is asleep and Noah is asleep....the only ones awake are me and baby Schwartz and she is moving like crazy.

I would like to say that this blog will uplifting and awe-inspiring or even positive, but there are no guarantees. While I am mostly filled with gratitude and contentment, the reality is that today was a very challenging and trying day.

Since my last blog, I got my grade for my class and I am pleased. I had a belly button birthday on the 10th and I am now 36 years old..whoa...that really sounds old, but I seriously am behind mentally by about 10 years! I had a great birthday, not because of all the relaxation I got, or the lavish gifts, but because I got to go out and have some grown up, dare I say, grown woman, time. The cool thing about myself that I have begun to realize is that I really benefit from time with my friends. I am needing less but getting more from my relationships these days...

So, I am done with summer school, and this fall will be a busy one -
I am in my last trimester, school starts in a week, baby shower is coming up, Zack has a birthday, and in December, he will be graduating- not to mention baby due in November! Things are so great for me, but the load seems so heavy at times. This last week has been extremely trying for me...
Having a toddler and being pregnant is really taking a toll on me and Zack... we have not had a night to ourselves in so long, I can't even remember when the last one was. We love each other and we love Noah it just seems like forever since we have had time for just the two of us...and I am a little bummed because of it.

Actually I am more than a little bummed...I miss my partner, my guy.

On a brighter note, I bought my first pink dress for the baby today and it was a sweet thing.